::..HELLO 2015..::

:..3 January 2015..:

Supposed to post this on the first day of 2015 nope?

Haha~ Kit failed to find the mood of blogging afraid of bad mood will affect the contents

So ya~ it's always better to do something in a good mood 

Keep silence when you're in anger; don't promise when you're upset =)

Shall I start with 2014 review? Hmm... Wondering who is actually reading my blog

Assume there's no one reading? Hahaha 

So I'm gonna write anything I wish =D

TOP 10 HAPPY EVENTS IN 2014

1. Kuching trip with lovely Ah-Shu in February. Finally managed to have a vacation with uni-mates. A precious memories and time spent with Ah-Shu at Kuching. Managed to get myself a camera a day before =) 
2. Had an interview with Dr.Diana, a great psychologist who owns an amazing and well-adapted office. Amazed by her room once I stepped in. Tools for art therapy, child therapy etc is just too fascinating! A talk with her is totally worth for the hard work paid before (ignore the efforts of searching for therapists and called/emailed them 1 by 1) 
3. Attended to IMU ball as a photographer with my girls -- Ah-Shu and Aji. Being first time attend to ball night although it wasn't my prom night. Shall I go next time? Well it depends.
4. A farewell party and Teacher Day celebration for PS211 and all psychology lecturers. A really simple celebration which I personally thinking. Yet seniors' response tell me that I'm wrong. They touched by our efforts and thoughts! Was actually busy for thesis and other assignments and this celebration. Had not enough time for video-making until the day morning. Ended-up I made a careless mistake in the video, yet it became a point for laughter and fun. Glad that everyone enjoyed on that day.  
5. An advanced birthday surprise from PS212-- my lovely cohort. **the post about this still saved in draft lol** Everyone looked so normal as usual. Can't sense nervousness from Aji Hahaha~ Cheated by QS to library to wait for Ms.Sam. Suspect at first because Ms.Sam seldom ask us to meet her in library especially in collaborative study area. But the thought just flash in mind for 2 seconds because mind was totally occupied by "LUNCH TIME--FOOD" anyway still got hint from "someone" and ya~ mind started to suspect and puzzle up all the rare things. But still have no idea on what are they trying to do. Thank you PS212~ LOVE ya~
6. Getaway to Sunway Lagoon after eos! Yeah! First time hang out together with Diandra and Zul. Because of lacking of "partner", paired up with Ah-Shu and we became 1 day couple. Haha.. Its really fun and joy is everywhere. **until today I still don't understand how Vuvuzela looks special for my friends** LOL
7. Hang out with Tien, Wei Wei and Gordon at Wetland, Putrajaya for photography session. So warm to get back to nature and feel the sunshine. I miss photography activity like this. 
8. Sekinchan trip with parents and Bro Bryant. Had very delicious and cheap seafood lunch. **craving for crispy sotong while typing this post lol**
9. Secret Santa gift exchange with PS212. Our last year to celebrate Christmas together. So much love and caring from my lovely friends. Thank you my secret santa-- Suzie. =) and special thanks to Aji, for making me a special shoes; Many thanks to Ah-Shu for your present which shipped from oversea(?) Will make good use of it =D
10. Volunteer as a photographer for Christmas event at Paediatric unit, HKL. Felt glad that I joined this meaningful event and witness the joy, laughter we brought for them. Thank you my partner-in-crime. Again, the lovely pretty lady-- Ah-Shu. xD

Bad things? Of course there are. I not going to post them out. Perhaps the memories will fade as time goes. It's not worth to keep all these right?

Keep losing myself in 2014. Don't ask why. If I could know why, I won't lost and lost again. Lost and Found. And Lost again. Some thing I try to ignore indeed I care very much inside heart core. And all these things come from one root. Can't release myself from the trap? Ya. Look like I am tied. No matter how fast how far I run, once one pull the rope, I will be back. The more I learn, The more I see, The more I hear, The more I feel, the more I lost. Since when I perceive things in pessimism way. There're two sounds in my mind telling me "you should be sad" "you should look from different perspective and you'll be happy". Getting tired of listening to them. I finally shut them off and now I have no feeling. I put myself into numbness. Is a temporary state until I regulate don't worry. 

Sometimes I trapped into dilemma of worrying you to know yet wanting you to see. Until her words actually strike my heart, for being so long I thought no one could actually understand me. She told our friend: She (me) keep everything inside her heart. We all won't know. All she need is just to vent them out. I, really surprised and blanked at that moment. Somehow I thought no one understand me. Feel so comfortable and secure. Because there's someone who understand me? Yes.

I don't usually tell people my secrets. All stuff I shared is on the surface and not really matter for me. Those I didn't share, is really matter for me and no one will know. No one. =)

This post suddenly become a sad post. Haha~ I'm sorry. 

Let's check my 2014 wishlist. Hehehe.. Shall we? 

1. Ferris Wheel
2. Watch              CHECKED
3. Camera            CHECKED
4. Wallet              CHECKED
5. Backpack         CHECKED
6. Instax Camera
7. Pocket Watch
8. Handmade stuff

Not bad~ *hands clap* At least I got half of the list. Hahaha~ Some is present some I bought myself. Many thanks to those who gift. Shall renew my 2015 wishlist~ Let's check next year =3

Words for 2015(?) Hmm~ what should I say... ...

Dear 2015,

2014 marks an unhappy year for me. Of course I will ask you please be good to me. I know this is a wish, not demand. I will work hard for a happy year, happy me. I gain some lessons from your brother, 2014. It's not a bad thing for him to teach me, just that the messages he gave somehow make me confuse, have no idea what should I do. Yeah, He gave me a lot of hard times, for me to see through some people, understand some things. I really tired of doing something. Feel wanna give up on doing yet I keep telling myself "let try 1 more time". The result is disappointed. I tired of being disappointed. Maybe I shall listen to him, give up and stop trying anymore. I tried before, the progress is just so unnoticeable and no one cares. 

If you ask am I happy? I not sure. Maybe doing what I want to do now is difficult and full of challenges. Some people might notice in the half way. This time, I not going to let them to pull me back.  Bless me 2015. I will work hard for myself, live for myself. Oh yeah~ gotta find me back. Happy fool or wise sage? I want both! 

Love you~ 2015!  

Today's Quote:

Change only be better, not to please others.

#12 Don't Cry, Kit

好熟悉的感觉.

是那年压迫害怕的感觉. 是否意味现在的我压力很大? 大到超越我的负荷了? 连我自己都没发现?

你误会了我的意思。 好想向你解释清楚。 只是这委屈只能永远是个心底话。 A和B的差别很大。 你建立了,却也毁了。

对不起。我今天失控了。 今天的我不是真正的我。 我该怎么告诉你们我的歉意?

今天, 我哭了。 因为压力, 因为委屈, 因为明白, 也因为没人了解。

A familiar feeling. I might not be able to take it.
Stressed? Yes and it is more than that.
I cried today. 
Because of stress, because of grievance; 
I understand, and understand that no one will understand. 
Who cares?

Today's Quote:

The thing about feelings is that, if you cover your mouth, they'll come out from your eyes

#11 Birthday Celebrations

..::30 October 2014::..

Before October waving goodbye

we decided to have an early celebration for a lovely lady
'purposely' to make her grow 'older' few days earlier
Hehehe~
So we have our warm and filled-with-love celebration at Fish & Co, Pavillion

My first try at Fish & Co and had New York Fish n Chip

(I typed fish chop and it sounds so 'good' to me lol xD)

Surprisingly the portion is very big and tastes nice.

but not until you found out that your stomach is fully occupied by fishhhhhh~ and french friessss!

Somehow feel that my stomach gonna burst!

Too bad I am too smart.

So I give some french fries as birthday wishes to the birthday girl

Hehehe~ byebye french fries! Finally I'm done! =D

New York fish n chips

At first I thought Fish & Co will just serve the cake and let us to be in-charged

Who knows? They all come together and sing a birthday song for Ah-Shu

To be frank I really blank for 1 second (or maybe 2 seconds)

Luckily my mind restart in a flash light speed and I join them sing song together

Is not an easy job when your beloved friend (Yes I mean you Ah-Shu) is the main character

You have to take responsibility to take pictures of hers, and others friends.

Well just take an easy because Allis is there Hahaha~

Anyway I used to be taking pictures with Ah-Shu so still kinda feel uneasy

Birthday girl with her cake

Candles doesn't represent her true age xD

Suddenly realized that I didn't interact much with her

I just eat and take pictures
and we didn't take picture too!

Well since she is the main character of course she need to entertain others

I don't mind to just keep my mouth shut and take pictures

If you ask why I would say because "I like it"

*sometimes just want to be quiet*

*and nope it's not emo*

Dear Ah-Shu

I know this post is kinda (or very) late

Anyhow I still wishing you a very Happy Birthday

I know there have been too many people to send your their best wishes 

So there will be more than 365 wishes and you are gonna to have everyday good days onward till your next birthday =D

Hope you enjoy your birthday celebration(s) 

:.:..11 November 2014..:.:

Guess who's the next birthday star?

Hehe~ It's her our bamboo girl-- Jing Han

Another advanced birthday celebration =D

Well we have no choice as she need to celebrate with someone very important on her actual day Hehehe~ xD

Headed to Morganfields, Pavillion after class.
*wait for IO friends so I had a very short nap at vista* thank you Aji *

Super heroes are coming~

Ocean Madness

We ordered sharing platter which is recommended for 3-4 people sharing

Yet we managed to show that this big portion is able to shared by 8 peoples! 

Hehe of course with 1 starter-- Beer Mushroom 

(I have bad memory in memorizing food name)

Ocean Madness consist of 3 fish fillets, sticky bones with BBQ sauce, 2 different sausages (and I don't know what sausages are they), 3 corns, 6 prawns, 3 muffins, french fries and salad!

(as you can seen from the picture xD)

It really good for you to order this platter and shared among your friends.

You are not only sharing the foods, but also laughter and fun =D

Jing Han with her Komugi's Mango Mousse 

I found another bakery which bake good-quality cakes =)

Hehehe~

Morganfields also did the same way 

they served cake and sang song for Jing Han

Based on past experience I just snap snap & snap pics xD

Compared to Fish & Co, Morganfields has nicer lighting so I don't have to edit much for pics =3

With Birthday girl 

Thank you Ah-Shu for taking this picture.

This explain why I don't have a pic with you on that day LOL
You took pics with others but no me T.T

This is just so unfair! 

Anyway there's always a next time

p/s: we actually lied to Jing Han that this muffin is her birthday cake xD

Happy Birthday to my lovely ladies
Thanks for being my lovely friends and fill up my uni life with colors
Enjoy your day!
(Buttttttt.. this post was late!)

epilogue:

Recalled my birthday celebration this year.

Mixed feeling for it.

I hate birthday fall before/during exam

And how could I didn't celebrate with someone?

We didn't celebrate for each other?! @Tien 

Today's Quote:

When you're with friends, the pain is easier, jokes are funnier, and life is just that much better

#10 Sekinchan

..: 6 October 2014:..

Requested mum to bring me to Sekinchan as parents went without me during exam week 

(and mum will pass this message to dad xD)

Woke up around 9.30 and have a cup of coffee

Dad said treat us lunch (for us brunch) there

Took around 2 hours to reach

Bro Bryant and me were starving in the car and even started to think for the menu

According to mum seafood was very cheap at Sekinchan

I asked dad to order crispy Sotong (craving for it) with Bro's support

Had lunch at 鸿运海鲜饭店 

Dad ordered Crispy Squid, Butter Sotong, Asam Laksa Fish, and fried egg with bitter gourd

and all these taste delicious! Daebak!

This meal costs around RM80

Can you imagine that? It's in a big portion and delicious.

Too bad I didn't take any photo

as we were too hungry + waited for around 20 minutes for food to be served

This restaurant have a very good service

Dad asked the young lady for route

She explained patiently, nicely and in detailed.

She left and backed with a name card with map behind to have a better understanding for us

It's small and full during lunch hour and some people is still willing to wait 

All I can say that this restaurant kinda worth for wait

(This is the first seafood restaurant I tried in Sekinchan)

If you're interest, here's the address:

Restoran Bagan Sekinchan,

No.168-C, Lorong 5, Jalan Bagan,

45400, Sekinchan

Saw this at the house next to restaurant

It keep moving when I tried to take picture

Maybe it knows I trying to 'shoot' him? xD

Next destination after lunch: Pantai Redang

It located quite near from the restaurant.

Can smell the sea once get down from car

Walking to the temple

A random shot of mum and bro

Surprisingly it looks quite good(?)

Hehehe~ muka tebal~ 

许愿树

Mum asked whether do I want to make a wish

"Nope" I smiled

I doubt myself can I throw it up to the tree

I am not the only 1 looking up to the tree hmm

didn't realize until I checked photos at home xD

The beach is very near from temple. Just opposite

Nice view but the water is dirty

Sigh~

So playing kite is the only activity I guess? 

Asked them to take a picture

Dad didn't heard me

so mum and bro posed like this

I gonna show this to dad xD

Random shot~ Haha

Dad's pose always the same

I found this cutie pie at beach! 

Seem kite is not the only activity

Was lepak at the stalls with mum and bro to get some souvenirs

Suddenly dad called and asked me to take this shot 

Lol~ Luckily still managed to take 1

有个交代了 xD

We ♥ Sekinchan 

Left Pantai Redang and moved to Kampung A

Looking for 华仔芒果园

Dad bought a lot of mangoes LOL

but I also managed to buy 3 big guavas

p/s: Just had 1 as desserts after dinner! OMG so nice!

On the way there you will find yourself surround by paddy field

It's not the harvest season now

They say around November

Hope that I can come again *praying*

I am sure this must be a very beautiful scene

Bro + paddy field + sky

The building behind is for swallow rearing -- says my dad la

Finally I understand why I can see bird nest everywhere 

Let's my mum do the ending of this post this time =) 

Today's Quote:

To travel is to take a journey into yourself

#9 My Lovely BFF

 ::.1 October 2014.::

Please remember her name: Tien aka 1-10

(I always use nickname in my blog)

Date with this pretty lady twice in a week before getting back into hectic study life

Dated her out on Tuesday night but she has no reply.

Our conversation just stopped without a proper "good night" 

Hahaha~

Went to uni to hand in my thesis proposal in the morning.

and this pretty lady replied my message says she is okay to go out later.

Promised her that we can go out at 11.30 

but still unable to make it at that time

Ended up we went out at noon

*Sorry for making you keep waiting*

Went out for shopping and coffee like usual

Dropped our footprints again at Pavillion

I like this lady very much

as I can just bring her to any shop and ask her to choose whatever she likes as her present

Well she gets something she likes and I don't have to headache of thinking what to get for her 

This is our 'custom' and we love it 

One stone kills two birds =)

And we had our early dinner at Levain Boulangerie

*her food always tastes nicer than mine*

I only can say that she is really very good in ordering

p/s: please stop me from getting what I want and suggest command me to order other dishes next time =)

Because she got herself a new Fujifilm camera

a small and portable camera unlike my DSLR

(Did I tell you that this lady is the one who inspired me to take photography? Nope?

Oh Yeah! She is the one who inspired and taught me photography skills)

So we took usfie after food

Grimace >.<

She says "let's do grimace this shot"

I replied "I don't know how to do"

seem that we two totally did opposite what we said

Big eyes~

Can't see her big eyes right?

I doubt is because of her spectacles that's why no difference

Pretty ladies xD

Haha I'm not la~ But she is 100% a pretty lady

::. 3 October 2014.::

Dragged her out for photoshoot at Wetland, Putrajaya.

together with Wei Wei and his friend-- Gordon

and this lady left her camera at home >.<

The environment here inferior to Botanical Garden 

but too bad I have been prohibited to step into BG anymore.

Not much photos been taken actually.

*She rejected to be my model *

Thinking hard to get a nice picture option for this.

And I am still thinking... Haha xD

Went home after this 

My turn to accompany her to send her sister for interview at KL

as I mentioned before that I like her very much

She is a good partner in crime for shopping, coffee, movie, trip, desserts, lunch date 

and she is a good listener too! 

Always bring me for nice food and coffee hunting

My life will get bored without her

like missing a piece of puzzle and incomplete

Lunch date at MainMain Cafe

Had plum sauce chicken and Luo Shen Hua Cha

tastes like Ribena but I like it more than Ribena

It's good for girls 

Plum Sauce Chicken Rice

The portion is quite big with reasonable price

and it tastes nice.

Tien had black pepper chicken rice

tastes nice but not for me definitely

The black pepper is so black pepper~ Hahaha 

means very spicy and I cannot stand for it

Interior design 

Sometimes you gotta admit that simple is perfect =D

 Let's end this post with my favorite painter found in MainMain Cafe.

 Some pic credits to Tien =)
Don't forget our promise k! *winks*winks*

Today's Quote:

Having such a great friend in life is the greatest gift from God.